I am sure you are all wondering what has been going on in the Spivey householod. Well, last Monday, February 2nd was my first day back at work. I certainly have been having mixed feelings about going back for two weeks now. I felt...
- excited about going back so I could have some adult interactions and converstations
- nervous to teach again since I had been gone from my students for three months and had a student teacher who was teaching before that
- upset about leaving Christian with his new babysitter
- scared about our new routines throughout the day
- etc.
However, when I woke up on Monday morning all my worries disappeared. Things ran smoothly and wonderful. I could not have asked for anything better.
However, I have to ask one question...I have heard all the stories about how upset new mommies are when they dropped off their child at daycare or with a babysitter and head off to work. They cry all the way there and all day long. Well, I did not have those feelings at all. I was happy and excited to be back at work and for him to have some play time with his new friends at his babysitter's house. Does that make me a bad mommy because I was not upset about leaving my first born baby with someone else during the day? I know I will never be able to take that time back...staying home with my first born child, dropping him off with his babysitter for the first time, and seeing him after work. I just did not see it as a sad or upsetting time...I saw it as a new stage in our lives together. However, now when I think about it I do get upset because I wonder if I should have been like all the other mommies and gotten upset and teary eyed. Who knows?!?
All I know is that life is grand with Christian in my life. He has certainly changed how I run things in my life. He is always in my heart and in my thoughts so it makes me feel like he is right there even when he is not. Oh, how a baby changes everything...
2 comments:
NO! You're not a bad mommy at all. Everyone reacts differently. I did not cry and get upset either upon returning to work. However, I do get upset when things get stressful at work and things are crazy with a baby at home and I think, "If only I could just be mommy and not have to work..." My struggle is balancing everything. You seem to have it down. Some pointers, please? :)
You definitely aren't a bad mommy. I know Christian is one lucky little boy to be able to call you "Mommy." It is so nice seeing you around LMES again. We missed you! Love the update on the craziness of life with that sweet little boy :)
Love,
Jessa
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