Makes My Stomach Drop

As I was growing up I was what you would call a very headstrong, independent, and hard-headed person. You might also say that I am still that way now but in a different way. I get my mind set on something and I think that it should be that way.

When I was in high school I would have been what you called a "trouble maker". Always doing the opposite of what my mom and daddy asked me to do. Always hitting the best parties over the weekend. And always trying to find a way to break curfew or sneak out of the house so that I could stay out and "party" longer. I remember telling my mom and daddy "When I have kids and I go out of town, I am going to tell them that they can have a party because I know that they will have one anyway." My mom said she wanted to get that in writing because she knew that was going to change fast when I had kids of my own.

BOY DID IT EVER!

The things that you think of when you are in high school and college and then think when you have children are totally different. I think about...
what Christian is going to be like when he starts school...
what he is going to be like when he hits puberty...
what he is going to be like in high school...
who he is going to date...
where he is going to go to college...
what he is going to major in...
who he is going to marry...
what his children are going to look like...
is he going to listen to all the advice I give him as he grows up because I have probably been there and done that...
is he going to confide in me...
is he going to come to me for advice...
is he going to consider me a friend and a mother...
is he going to cry on my shoulder when someone breaks his heart...
is he going to be healthy and live a long and prosperous life...
is he going to be a follower of God and confide in him with all his questions, troubles, worries, etc.
Gosh, these are just some of the questions that go through my head as I think about Christian growing up.

However, one thing that I know for sure is that I will NOT let him have parties when I am out of town. Last night my stomach dropped when we were on our way home from Lake City and we had to pass by Camden, SC. The Carolina Cup was over and all the Cup goers were heading home. The Carolina Cup is a big horse race in Camden, SC where lots people go out and tailgate all day long. We happened to drive by a car full of girls who had flipped their car. Two girls were on the side of the road consoling each other and the other girl was on a stretcher. My stomach dropped because my first thought was "what if that is Christian one day?"

I know that I can not guard him from everything and stop him from experimenting; however, I hope that I place values and morals into him that help him make good decisions. Lets just say that I hope he does not grow up to be like his mommy...a "trouble maker" that wants to try to prove her parents wrong when they are and have always been TOTALLY RIGHT!